Chapter 2: Chipping Away
Blinking rapidly, why am I lying here?
The first thing I saw upon opening my eyes was the bottom of the shoe rack.
Did I drink?
No, if Iâd gotten so drunk that I passed out in the corner of the entryway without even making it to my room, I wouldnât feel this fine.
If that were the case, forget the smell of alcohol, my head should be pounding like itâs about to explode the moment I open my eyes.
But I feel fine.
Could I have fainted from pulling two all-nighters in a row?
Thatâs a real possibility, and it hits hard.
âFor now, I need to get up⌠Ah?â
My voice sounds strangely high-pitched.
Itâs too thin to chalk up to catching a cold from sleeping in a chilly place.
It sounds like a womanâs voice, not a manâs.
More than that, I donât have a fever, and my throat doesnât hurt.
No, if anything, my body feels better than usual.
Alright, letâs get up.
I donât have a hobby of rolling around in a dusty pit.
The moment I stretched out my arm to push myself up from the floor, I flinched, my body trembling as my eyes locked onto the arm and hand in my field of vision.
âWhat⌠is thisâŚ?â
The hand pressing against the floor wasnât mine.
The forearm was so slender it could be grasped in one hand, but not so thin that the bones were visible.
The hand was delicate, the kind that instantly brings to mind the phrase âslender jade fingers.â
And it was paleâcompletely pale.
Not the milky white skin people often talk about, but a color so drained it seemed devoid of any life.
A sharp painâthrobâshot through my head.
âUghâŚâ
Haha⌠no way.
Thereâs no way I turned into a woman.
I bolted upright and brushed the dust off my clothes.
My sleep pants and underwear, now too big for my body, slid down with a rustle.
A chill wrapped around my legs, stealing my body heat, and I shivered reflexively.
A hollow laugh escaped me.
âThis is a dream, right? A perfectly fine guy turning into a woman overnight? Thatâs nonsense. Donât make me laugh.â
I muttered in denial.
A sweet, feminine voice lingered in my ears, but I refused to let it sink in.
Hah, hahaha.
Stumbling, I made my way from the entryway to my room.
The room was warm, filled with cozy heatâguess I forgot to turn off the heater.
Nothing in the room had changed.
It was exactly as I remembered.
A desk littered with empty Monster cans, an ashtray in the corner piled high with cigarette butts like a tower, a monitor too dim to see clearly now that it was daytime, and a messy, unmade bed.
Everything was the same as in my memoryâmy room, unchanged.
The only thing thatâs changed is me.
No, no way.
I havenât changed.
Iâm perfectly sane.
Calm down and think back slowly.
What did I do yesterday, and where?
Letâs start by checking the date.
I shuffled over to my desk and looked at the monitor.
The brightness was set to the lowest, so the screen was barely visible.
Instead of the novel I was working on yesterday, the dark monitor reflected the face of an unknown woman who looked like a child but exuded a strange, alluring charm.
[Heh hehâŚ]
The face in the reflection seemed to smile faintly, startling me.
I ducked my head.
No, Iâm sane.
Keeping my head down, I reached out to fumble with the monitor.
The brightness buttonâitâs this one, right?
I adjusted the button on the bottom left, raising the brightness, and when it was bright enough, I looked up at the screen.
[To envy and hate someone is to diminish yourself by comparing yourself to others. Thus, those who diminish themselves with envy and jealousyâ]
The text Iâd stopped working on yesterday came into view.
But that wasnât important right now.
I glanced at the bottom left of the monitor: October 17, 2020, 8:22 AM.
The date matched my memory.
Not even a day had passedâjust four hours.
âThereâs no way a person could change like this in just four hours, you crazy bstard!!â
Bang!
I slammed my fist on the desk.
This was maddening, infuriating.
Could a person really change this much in just a few hours?
Their gender, too?
No, itâs absolutely impossible.
If it were possible, why would people spend money and time on gender reassignment surgeries?
Scientifically, biologically, itâs utterly impossible.
Sure, some creatures in nature can change their sex, but those are animals, not humans.
And even those creatures donât switch genders in a matter of hoursâtheir reproductive systems arenât that simple.
âWhat kind of crazy bstard rambles on like thisâŚâ
My head was so cluttered it felt like it might explode.
Random thoughts kept spiraling, tangling into incoherent nonsense.
I wanted to calm down, but I couldnât.
Deep down, I knew instinctively that the moment I accepted this reality, the âmeâ I knew would completely collapse.
The long coat I was wearing felt stifling.
I unzipped it and, realizing it wasnât my bodyâwell, it was, but not reallyâtossed the oversized, baggy coat aside.
My eyes fell on a small but undeniably prominent chest.
Ignoring it, I got up and headed to the bathroom.
The bathroom was so dark that without the light on, nothing was visible.
Maybe it seemed even darker because it was bright outside.
Well, maybe thatâs for the best, I thought as I stepped inside and closed the door.
The bathroom, unheated, was filled with a cool chill and pitch-black darkness.
I turned on the faucet at the sink and stared blankly at the water.
Something was off.
âWhy can I see so wellâŚ?â
Even without turning on the light, I could see the bathroomâs interior vividly.
From the water flowing out of the faucet to the brand label on the body wash by the tubâeverything was crystal clear.
It was like I could see through the darkness.
No, no way.
I kept denying it as I splashed cold water on my face.
The delicate, jade-like hands catching the water caught my eye, but I forced myself to ignore them and washed my face.
âPhewâŚâ
I turned off the faucet and stared blankly at the water draining from the sink.
Drip, dripâthe water falling from my face soaked my T-shirt.
The hands gripping the sink were still those beautiful, unfamiliar hands of a woman.
I squeezed my eyes shut, then slowly opened them and raised my head.
At a glance, my hair was a deep purple bob, so dark it could be mistaken for black.
My eyes were wide with shock, my face undeniably beautiful even at a fleeting glance.
The most striking feature was my faintly glowing, pale lavender eyes, radiating an eerie aura.
Iâm not some spiritual guru who can read peopleâs energies, but anyone who saw these eyes would think the same thing I did.
âThese eyes⌠they pierce right through youâŚâ
These werenât normal human eyesâthey held a strange, captivating power.
They had a magnetic pull, drawing people in.
Despite all the problemsâmy life potentially spiraling into ruinâjust locking eyes with my reflection made all those worries vanish, my mind going blank.
Even giving it the benefit of the doubt, these eyes didnât belong to a human.
A bewitching face, a bewitching voiceâevery grandiose description from TV felt meaningless in the face of the overwhelming power these eyes held.
And it wasnât just the eyes.
They were the most noticeable, but as my awareness expanded from the eyes to the face and then to the entire body, an undeniable, almost sinister aura emanated from me.
It wasnât something visible, but it was more than enough to feel overwhelming.
[Like my body?]
I could almost hear the woman in the mirror smiling and speaking to me.
Snapping out of it, I blinked rapidly, startled as the room suddenly seemed to darken.
The glowing eyes in the mirrorâmy eyesâhad somehow stopped shining, looking like those of an ordinary person.
It sounded strange, but thatâs how it was.
Fumbling along the wall, I left the bathroom and returned to my desk, staring blankly at the monitor.
I just sat there, staring, unaware of time passing.
When I came to, it was already late evening.
I only snapped out of it because my stomach growled, not because Iâd regained any composure.
âFood⌠I need to eatâŚâ
No matter how chaotic my mind was, I had to eat.
I slowly got up and went to the kitchen.
Without thinking, I opened the fridge door and was once again confronted with its pitiful state, which Iâd briefly forgotten amidst everything else.
âIâll order somethingâŚâ
Iâll clean it later.
Yeah, Iâm just not in the right headspace for it now.
Itâs definitely not because Iâm too lazy to throw things out and clean.
Definitely not.
For real.
