Chapter 7: The pretty girl whose life was ruined(7)
I decided to stream for a few reasons.
First, it doesn’t take extra time. Leveling my alt to 70 already ate up hours. I thought flashing my voice and flirting in chat would rake in cash, but… yeah, that crashed and burned.
Starting a new alt to try again isn’t guaranteed to work better. Plus, it’s a time sink.
I barely slept Friday and Saturday. Partly for… other reasons…
Also, I’m no stranger to streaming. I watch streams sometimes, YouTube almost daily. Watching doesn’t mean I’ll succeed, but I sure as hell can’t work a convenience store job. Zero confidence.
And, maybe it’s arrogant, but a hardcore RPG gamer girl feels… fresh? Maybe not, but oh well.
Arksha Online has female streamers, but none dig deep into it. The few who did seem to have moved on to other games.
Other games are similar. There are some women streamers hardcore about RPGs, but…
Aren’t I prettier?
It’s embarrassing to think, but it’s true, right?
My eyes are a bit droopy and dead—probably from lack of sleep—but otherwise, I’m perfect. Pretty face, pale skin, big chest.
My personality? Uh… fck.
But I’m pretty, so it’ll work out, right?
I looked up how to stream. Found detailed guides and videos. My PC might struggle, but lowering game settings should do the trick.
I’ve never donated to a stream. I’m barely scraping by—where’s the money for that? I don’t even use YouTube Premium. AdGuard’s my savior.
Not ashamed. I’m upright. I’ve eaten millions of rice grains without ever farming. Producers and consumers are different, right?
A pretty girl like me—what’s the issue?
I followed beginner streaming guides diligently. Made a new account for the streaming platform—my old one had some… bad traces.
Downloaded and set up the necessary programs.
The biggest headache was the nickname. I couldn’t use something like “McDMomHeartDelivery” or “L-YuO-RiV-NaE.”
Yurina’s my favorite character, Taira Yurina, 平友梨奈. She’s from a school band anime, not your typical high school girl but a mysterious one with a dark edge… yeah, okay.
Nickname generators were useless. BoramaeParkCasanova or FlatEarthFanatic? No way.
My main’s nickname, IcePunch, doesn’t work for streaming. FlowerHaeneul brings bad memories.
I racked my brain but came up empty. Picked a random name and started the stream. Honestly, I wanted to game more than stream.
First day, full of confidence.
Earnings: 0 won.
[No mic here?]
[Don’t have one.]
Lie. I do. But I don’t want to use it.
Three sentences on Discord wrecked my mental state. How am I supposed to use a mic? Impossible.
[No cam?]
[Don’t have one.]
Lie. I’ve got a crappy webcam…
But turning it on felt… embarrassing. Not as bad as the mic, but still scary. I can’t gauge how people will see my face.
[How do we know you’re a pretty girl?]
[I’m a pretty girl.]
[Lol, so you’re a pretty girl?]
[Hi, I’m a pretty girl too!]
[OMG, I’m a Seoul S-class pretty girl (virgin).]
Fck.
Viewers came in faster than expected. I was pessimistic at first, but “Screwed Life Pretty Girl” pulled aggro well.
But the vibe was a mess.
[Streamer’s nickname is so pretty girl lololol]
[So damn funny lol]
I know that laughter’s mockery…
[I’m really a pretty girl.]
[Sure, I believe you, I’m a pretty girl too.]
[For real lol]
I’m pissed, but not surprised. Losers who only game talking like that. Pathetic.
Still, I need to use either the cam or mic. But not today. I’m not ready.
[At least put up a selfie.]
[Don’t have one.]
[?]
[No phone?]
[Yeah.]
Lie. Obviously.
I don’t use data, calls, or texts, but my phone’s a multimedia and community tool in bed.
No selfies, though. Why would I take those?
[Caveman lol?]
[I’m a pretty girl.]
[She says she’s a pretty girl~]
[Who said we don’t believe you lololol]
[I’m a 23-year-old college girl (Z-cup, blonde, tanned, 185cm, sensitive, virgin), believe me?]
[You’re a pretty girl ^^]
I grit my teeth and focus on the game. Gotta clear dailies.
[Event quests too.]
[I’m a 12-year-old loli (pretty, lovely, cute, with that*), am I a pretty girl?]
[Pretty girl, yup.]
[Is that a yes or no lol]
…Gotta bash their heads too.
[If I post a selfie, will you believe me?]
[Hmm ;]
[I already believe you lol]
So damn annoying, but I can’t shotgun the keyboard. Last time I did after losing to a hacker in PVP, my monitor nearly fell. One more, and it’s done for.
With trembling, dainty fists, I take a selfie with my old smartphone. The dark room shot looks worse than in the mirror. My shadowed face looks grim, like a midnight hillside.
I retake it, unsatisfied. Room lights on, bathroom shots.
The best one’s at the entrance. I email it to myself, fiddle a bit, and get it on a corner of the stream screen.
[Good?]
Chat goes quiet for a moment. Stunned by my beauty?
[Should we believe this?]
[Hmm ;]
[It’s really me.]
[Just took it.]
[Feels fake.]
…I’ll have to use the cam starting tomorrow.
I wouldn’t believe it either. Should’ve held a sign saying “pretty girl.” But holding a sign with one hand while taking a selfie with the other feels ridiculous.
[Photo’s so unbalanced.]
[Kinda makes it feel real ;]
[What’s unbalanced?]
[Pretty, but terrible at selfies lol]
[Hair looks like cosplay, but the clothes are like rags.]
[Stolen foreign selfie?]
My clothes, what.
I changed for the selfie. What’s wrong with a black long-sleeve? I’m not naked.
[What’s wrong with my clothes?]
[Collar’s all stretched ;]
[It’s pajamas.]
It’s my least ratty outfit…
[What’s with the hair?]
[Eyes look weird too.]
[Probably lenses.]
Do lenses change eye color? Curious, but I can’t search while streaming.
Do I say it’s dyed and lenses or natural?
Dye doesn’t seem to make this hair. A wig makes sense, but then they’d ask if I wear it every stream.
I don’t go outside. I’ll just insist.
[It’s really me, natural silver hair.]
[Lololol]
[Eyes natural too? lol]
[Yup.]
[Lol]
[Lolololol]
They’re not buying it.
I storm off, retake the photo. No proper paper or pens at home, so I dig through drawers, find a ballpoint. I try tearing a delivery box for paper… too weak, so I cut it with scissors.
Write “Screwed Life Pretty Girl,” glare at the camera, snap the selfie.
[Good?]
[?]
[For real?]
[Hmm ;]
[?????]
They’re starting to believe.
It’s not like I’ll get rich on day one. Time to game.
[Cam’s on tomorrow, so watch.]
[For real?]
[Making demands lol]
[If it’s real, I’ll watch.]
[I’m hardcore gaming now, so don’t talk to me.]
[?]
Gotta run raids today. It’s an easier one, but a 20-man raid with four people needs focus.
Pashupel’s Temple raid has a hard mode option. Its unique drops still lack replacements, so it’s popular. But learning patterns for old max-level content now is tough. No random parties for it either.
So I help out struggling players.
For a modest fee. Fair, reasonable compensation.
[Carrying lolol crazy]
[Carrying on first stream, legendary]
[People still carry Pashu??]
[Pashu hard 20 mil zzz]
I’m not a parasite.
Call me a helper for smooth, fun gameplay.