Chapter 1: Start.

I want to be loved too.

Living in an orphanage for 19 years taught me how tough life is.

For someone like me with social anxiety, it was an even harder world.

<Communication Disorder>

A condition where sufficient communication with others is impossible in situations requiring interpersonal interaction.

Could someone like me survive after leaving the orphanage?

One day, while crossing a crosswalk, I saw a truck speeding toward kindergarteners, and my body moved before I could think.

Was it the result of self-sacrifice?

When I was reborn, I started a new life in the world’s most prestigious family.

Even though I was reborn as a girl, what did that matter?

‘Zeus Group’

The top conglomerate in the business world.

I was overjoyed to be born with a diamond spoon, even better than a gold spoon.

Plus, I had a family I didn’t have in my past life.

As the youngest of three daughters, supposedly the most loved in any family.

I imagined two older sisters doting on me.

That dream shattered quickly.

Ten years after being reborn, by age 10, I was already treated like an invisible person at home.

Unlike my brilliant sisters, I could barely communicate—how could I expect any respect?

I had social anxiety in my past life, but I thought reincarnation might fix it.

Instead, it got worse.

Compared to my exceptional sisters, I struggled through school but didn’t last long.

I graduated middle school but dropped out of high school.

And at 20, I was kicked out of the house.

They gave me a place to live, but it was a rundown studio, barely 150 square feet.

I thought about getting a part-time job, but who would hire someone with social anxiety like me?

Plus, I’m short, probably from not eating well growing up.

How short?

…150 cm, okay!

144.6 rounds to 145, and then to 150!

While worrying about how to survive, I saw that hot job on YouTube: ‘Streamer.’

They say you can make a living with internet broadcasts.

Even with social anxiety, I could talk if I didn’t see people.

It’s like talking to a wall, which I can do.

So, I looked up how to become a streamer, but why is it so expensive!?

You need a good computer, a mic, and a cam? I’m not showing my face…

I barely have money to eat, where am I supposed to get funds?

“…Ugh, calling my sisters is scary…”

I rarely talked to them since they were always busy.

Unlike me, my sisters were exceptional.

They probably don’t even know I got kicked out.

‘When was the last time we talked?’

<Last Call Record>

“…A year ago. I haven’t called once this year.”

It’s October now, by the way.

They don’t reply to texts, so I reluctantly call.

“Baby sis? What’s up?”

“…Big sister? Um, well…”

“…I’m busy, can you get to the point?”

“S-sorry. Um, I need some money…”

“Fine, I’ll send it now. Bye.”

“T-thanks…”

The call ended before I could finish, and soon a bank alert came.

-OneTwo Bank, Ha-yoon Min, Deposit 10,000,000 KRW, Balance 10,421,450 KRW, 10/10 19:58 --

Big sister Ha-yoon, second sister Seo-yoon, and me, Ji-yoon.

Did she accidentally add an extra zero? Should I say something? It’s probably fine—it’s pocket change to her.

But it’s a fortune to me…

With big sister’s money, I went on Lupin, searched for top-rated items, and bought a computer and streaming gear.

I wanted to brag on my usual community, so I posted.

[Starting streaming tomorrow, bought gear, how’s it look?]

└You bought that?

└Is this a joke? Say it’s a joke!!

└Cancel it quick!! Why’d you buy that!?

└Why didn’t you ask first!? Cancel it!!

Heh, are they jealous? Trying to stop my smart purchase, those jerks.

The next morning, true to Lupin’s name, my precious computer and gear arrived overnight.

The emperor of the night, Lupin, doesn’t mess around.

Setting up the gear while watching YouTube, what’s this?

“Why are there so many cables? Just plug them in?”

Somehow, I set up the computer and hit the power button, but only a black screen appeared.

“What!? Did I get scammed!?”

[Help!!!! Bought a computer, but the screen’s black!!!]

└Did you install Windows?

└Sounds like you didn’t.

└What’re you doing? You need Windows for the screen to work.

“…What’s Windows?”

Why is it so demanding!?

It should just work when you plug it in, but nothing shows up!

I ended up calling a computer repair service to fix it.

“All done. You can use it now.”

“T-thank you…”

The technician gave me a weird look as I bowed nervously.

I don’t want to be like this either.

But finally, I could start streaming!

“Okay! So how do I stream!?”

“…”

“…Guess I’ll ask.”

[Urgent!!! How do I stream!?]

└Just tell it to stream.

└You’re hopeless, give up.

└You don’t know Windows and want to stream? Useless.

[No, help me!! I need to make a living!!]

└Streaming for money!? Useless.

└Just get out.

└Such impure intentions.

└Back in my day…

How is there not one helpful person?

Is this a gathering of old geezers?

I’m losing my mind.

I’ll just figure it out myself. I won’t stream this year if I rely on them.

Watching YouTube to set up streaming, I realized this isn’t a job for just anyone.

Sound, visuals, thumbnails—what are those?

‘Can’t you just do it!? You need a theme too!?’

…I’ll start and figure out the theme later. I don’t know.

With high hopes, I started streaming…

[Viewers: 0]

No one came to my stream.

Other streams have fancy backgrounds—who’d watch mine?

I’m trash. Should I die…

I’ve died once, would a second time be so hard…

[View任何

–What’s this stream about?

“Heck!? Viewer!? Welcome!”

–Whoa, a kid? Your voice is super cute lol.

“I’m not a kid!! I’m an adult! I’m 20 this year!”

–Wow, your voice is crazy cute lol. So what’s this stream?

“…Uh, good point? What should we stream?”

–You’re asking me? You started without even thinking about that? You think streaming’s easy?

His words hit like a dagger since I started with no preparation.

‘You’re no good at anything,’ is that what he’s saying?

Maybe I shouldn’t be alive?

Overwhelmed with sadness, I burst into tears.

“…Sob, sorryyyyy.”

[Viewers: 7]

–Why’re you crying!? Now I look like the bad guy!?

–Seems like you are the bad guy. Making a girl cry. You’re done, witch hunt.

–Trash, making a kid cry with that voice?

–Who’re you guys? I was alone a second ago, when’d you get here?

–No words for trash who makes kids cry.

“Sob, sorryyyyy.”

–No, I messed up!! Please don’t cry!! I look like trash!!

–You are trash.

–Trash.

–Go die, trash.

*

[Breaking News!! Viewer made baby streamer cry!!]

└What a trash guy, clearly a kid, what’d you say?

└That voice sounds like a baby? Trash.

└Who’s the streamer? Voice is super cute.

└Luna? Says Luna. [Link]

–This the stream where trash made our baby cry?

–Where’s the trash? There he is lol.

–Trash, making our baby cry?

–Go die, trash.

–I didn’t say anything bad, I swear! Please clear this up!!

“Sob, sorry. It’s my fault. Our viewer didn’t do anything wrong.”

–Chat says you called streaming easy and roasted her, dig up that guy’s info!!!

–Kill him!! Burn him!! Death penalty!!

–It’s her first stream, and you can’t even be supportive!!!! Trash needs to go!!!!

–I didn’t mean it like that, I swear!?

[Viewers: 60]

And so, my first stream ended as an apology stream.